After much back and forth, much lost sleep, and hours of agonizing, I made my decision yesterday. I'm usually the type of person who makes up her mind and runs with it. This time was so much harder, and I'm not altogether sure why. Hopefully I will still agree with my decision in the coming months. I read an article in Glamour magazine about the 10-10-10 rule for making decisions. It suggested that you should consider how a decision will affect you in 10 days, 10 months, and 10 years. I used this to make up my mind and found some merit with it, but still it didn't help crack my subconscious. And boy did my subconscious have some stuff to say! I think my poor brain was working out the issues all night Thursday night! I felt like I hadn't slept at all, but the decision was still not made. I had given a deadline of Friday, so delyaing the decision was not an option at that point! Ultimately I said I'm going to go. And then five minutes later decided to stay, doh! Either way, I am done and done!
In the process of deciding I posted a Facebook status mentioning the struggle in my head. I figured it would get response, as I left it kind of vague. Well the one person on my friends list who I really didn't want to comment, did. In a disgusting manner! I realize that we all have a different mix of friends on there, but mine happens to include coworkers and family members. You know, the kind of people who sex paraphinalia really shouldn't be discussed with? Yeah, them! So of course this guy posts something obscene...I respond to his post with a clarification that my decision was life changing and that I would appreciate it if he kept his comments PG/PG-13. Of course he had to respond in an even more gross manner. Not wanting other people to see this, I thought the only way to get rid of his comments was to delete him. Which I did. Apparently that doesn't remove their comments....so then I had to delete those as well. At that point I was so creeped out by the exchange that I felt no remorse for dropping that person. I guess he noticed I deleted him and made some status of his own about how is joke didn't go over too well....duh! I still don't feel regret, as my current facebook status says "Yeah I deleted him, I'd do it again too!" I feel for the wonderful person I know who is deeply connected to him, but people have different boundaries and tolerance levels...he crossed mine. If he had respected my response, maybe I wouldn't have deleted him.
What's funny about this, is if we were celebs or some big deal, this would totally be the start of a beef or a fued! I won't lie...that could have been fun!
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